Desire: Origionally written 2006.05.16

From a young age, I have had a sincere desire to help humanity in a substantial way.  If I may, I would like to share with you something that I have dedicated much thought.  As a Christian, I have spent many years studying various books on the Christian faith to include both the old and new testament.  I have also studied extensively other major religions and philosophies of the world in order to gain a better understanding of humanity.  As the son of a physicist, I have grown up with the idea that God is the ultimate scientist and by virtue of this fact I have become very familiar with the scientific method.  In addition, Psychology is a field of study that greatly intrigues me and as such, I have dedicated a great deal of time trying to figure out what exactly makes people tick.  These are my "credentials," and I present them with the hope that you will listen with your heart what I am about to share.  I feel compelled to share this with you as I strongly sympathize with your cause and therefore desires.

 

The following is a model of how I believe the human soul operates:

 

Desire - Hope - Faith - Knowledge - Understanding - Wisdom - Joy

 

In this e-mail, I will explain my understanding of the first facet of this model: Desire.

 

The best way to present this is to ask the following:  If you had to create artificial life how would you go about doing it?  How would you program a computer to be aware of self, and so on?  This is what I have come up with

 

We as humans are not so different from computers.  We process things by "1s" and "0s.”  What a computer cannot process is the "maybe," the "1" and the "0" at the same time.  Without getting too technical, a photon can behave as a particle in one case, a wave in another, and in some cases as both at the sometime.  In short, if we were to create a computer that was capable of this type of processing it would outperform every computer today combined by 1000 times.  In essence, you would have the raw computing power of the human brain, a Quantum computer.  The theory of quantum processing is nothing new and in fact may be possible in the next 20 years or so.

 

All this is to illustrate the way in we process information.  That is, we seem to perceive a thing as good (one), evil (zero), or not sure (maybe, 1/0).  I define "good" in this case as that which accomplishes the objective.  I will use the cliché example of a bank robbery to illustrate this definition.  Since the objective is to acquire the money with minimal effort, a gun proves to be effective in accomplishing this.  In this case having a gun is good as it helps the robber accomplish the objective.  However, we moral and upright citizens judge this thing as "not good" or evil, as it obviously impedes others from obtaining their objectives of financial stability and so on.  As such, we achieve greatest good by obtaining the greatest objective, which is, joy for all.  This is objective is what I call the divine objective.  Of all the intelligences in the universe, the one most capable of achieving this objective in its perfection would be the supreme intelligence, which is God.  God seeks after the divine objective and therefore is the source of the divine good.

 

This of course, is not an attempt to out-think all the great philosophers of the past rather an effort to explain what I think "good" is.  However, many of the great philosophers have concluded that man bears within him some intrinsic knowledge that is not learned in the mortal realm.  Plato used the term, "recollection" to describe this knowledge.  Using the Socratic Method, Plato used the character of Socrates to ask a slave boy questions until the slave boy came to understand a square root without Socrates providing him with any information.  I believe that each of us has the knowledge of the divine good within us.  Therefore, when presented with a perception of the world around us we compare the perception to the "recollection" and determine whether the perception is good (one), evil (zero), or not sure (one/zero).  Our entire day is filled with millions, if not billions, of decisions like these.  To my understanding, this is the most basic processing that leads to the myriad of human emotions that we experience.

 

Humans experience only two types of desire: the charitable desire to share joy with others, and the selfish desire an attempt to protect the loss of joy.  This of course is a natural instinct; we are programmed to avoid death.  Death, of course, would be the ultimate loss of joy.

 

To better understand selfishness, we must examine the cardinal sins.  It is interesting to note that the cardinal sins correlate with what I will call, the seven "selfs", and their opposing virtues:

 

 

 

         Sin            Self              Virtue

 

      1. Sloth          Self-Conservation Prudence

 

      2. Anger/Wrath    Self-Defense      Justice

 

      3. Gluttony       Self-Nourishment  Temperance

 

      4. Vanity/Pride   Self-Esteem       Humility

 

      5. Greed          Self-Sufficiency  Faith

 

      6. Lust           Self-Indulgence    Chastity

 

      7. Envy           Self-Improvement  Gratitude

 

Your “It’s all about me” workshop addresses these, “selfs,” and helps us understand how to walk the path of avoiding the cardinal sin without overshooting the mark.  The mark is a principle known in Buddhism as the middle path, or in Taoism, the harmonious balance of the Ying and Yang.  Many times, we focus on only one particular virtue, because it is a weakness of ours, or because we felt inspired by a Sunday school sermon.  This focus, of course, diverts attention from the other virtues and inevitably leads to unhappiness.  However, when the attention is on being happy these virtues will naturally manifest themselves.

 

The advertising industry spends billions, if not trillions, of dollars a year convincing us that a particular product will bring us happiness.  This industry employs various techniques to get us to visualize the product in our lives and the promised fruits of joy that accompany that product.  One of the many tactics used is the drink-our-beer-and-you’ll-be-sexy technique.  The desire to be sexy itself is not wrong, but exploited in this particular instance.  If a man were to succumb to this ploy, he might find his beer belly less popular than his originally trim physique.  Of course, there are women out there who find a beer belly sexy but this is beside the point.

 

Conclusively, desire is the ultimate source of power.  To master one’s desires is to master one’s own destiny.  Again, the advertising industry knows this and does whatever it can to influence this power to their favor.  The “It’s all about me” workshop helps us recognize areas where our desires may be invested in the wrong things and redirect them to areas of our lives that are more fulfilling thereby increasing the overall joy of that individual.  This increase in joy naturally permeates to others which why I find your work to be a great benefit to humanity.  I wish you the very best in your work and personal life and thanks again for the compliment.

This joke only gets worse the more you think about it.

The quality of relationships exert supreme influence over happiness.

Integrity is an IRA.

The Divine Good

Throughout time there has always stood the difficult task of defining what is good and what is evil.  To those religiously affiliated, the answer that God is good and the Devil is evil suffices.  To philosophers this circular logic is derisory.  I have come up with various thoughts; however, the following seems to be my best argument: 

Good is that which directly or indirectly contributes to obtaining an objective.  By this definition, it means that to a Bank Guard a gun is good because it helps him do his job of protecting the bank.  It also means that to a bank robber, a gun is good, and shooting the guard first helps the robber steal the money.  How is it that two opposing forces see the same thing as good?  In this grand universe, what is the ultimate objective?  I call it the Divine Objective.  Using this definition, that which contributes to obtaining the divine objective is ultimately the good, or the "divine good."  The opposite would also hold true in that there would be a Divine Evil.  Even so, what is the Divine Objective I have argued many times that it is happiness however, it seems that this answer makes many devout people of faith uncomfortable.  I cannot imagine any other answer to be superior.  What is greater than happiness?  I am confident that even the best alternative answers offered would still only be an ingredient necessary to this end.  If there is no joy in what we do and ultimately what God does then certainly we are already doomed.  So again, I submit to anyone: what is greater than happiness?

Lost Reality by Russell Tunes

Do we create what is not so that we may be,
To give essence a soul and life to hope?
We're creatures of this universe,
And of our own limitations.
Bound by our imperfections,
We search for divinity to set us free.
What shall we find of speach,
But our own voices echoing in solitude.
Is there hope left in procreation,
To give eternal life to man?
Never shall I know of life,
For I am but destined to mortality.

Life is my curse by Michael Tunes

when i wake up in the morning
do i wish to breath
walking to school each day
wondering will it end
hearing those manny words
that pirce in my heart
why dose this happen?
what could i do
what may i do
to help the ones who cry

My Chemical Romance - Welcome To The Black Parade

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said,
"Son when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken,
The beaten and the damned?"
He said
"Will you defeat them, your demons, and all the non believers, the plans that they have made?"
Because one day I leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join the black parade."

Hold Me Tightly by Samuel Tunes

Verse 1
I forsook
And you forgave
And Now it’s your love
Your love I crave

You took my hand
You led the way
When things get tough
Don’t you ever walk away

Chorus A
Hold me tightly
Tighter than you’ve ever held me
Coz I can’t stand this feelin’
I think I'm losin' my mind
Because you are my reason
My only reason for breathin'
How am I to fight the good fight...
Alone?

I forsook
And you forgave

Verse 2
When you looked into my gaze.
You saw within the purity.

You read my book.
You turned my page.
You read my heart,
And took away all the rage.

Two as one
It’s all or none

Oh no you can't...
You can’t just love part of me.

Chorus B
So hold me tightly
Tighter than you’ve ever held me
Coz I can’t stand this feelin’
I think I'm losin' my mind
Because you are my reason
My only reason for breathin'
How am I to fight the good fight?
How am I to live my life right?

Verse 3
And I find,
Find in you
That which was
Lost in me

You have brought
Joy into
Into my
My life

Having you
Entirely
Eternally
As my wife

Entirely
Eternally

It's what you will always be

Rekindled Spirit by Samuel Tunes

There where times as young man,
I sought to end my life.
I was known as blind man,
You opened up my eyes.
Heal me with your loving hands
Restore to me my sight.
You see the good that is in me
You help me realize.
Celestial Flame
The spark of my desire
Now my soul is on fire
You rekindled my soul
Took away my pain
Like an angel above
You came to show me your love
You rekindled my soul
Celestial Flame
Like an angel above
You came to show me your love
You rekindled my soul
Took away my pain
The spark of my desire
Now my soul is on fire
Promise me you won’t go.
Before the us there was me and you
And the chasm that we shared.
Alone I felt, If I only knew
I never felt so scared.
If ignorance was a blissful state
Then how do I compare.
I kiss your lips and I jubilate
So glad to be aware.
Celestial Flame
Like an angel above
You came to show me your love
You rekindled my soul
Took away my pain
The spark of my desire
Now my soul is on fire
You rekindled my soul
Celestial Flame
Like an angel above
You came to show me your love
You rekindled my soul
Took away my pain
The spark of my desire
Now my soul is on fire
Promise me you won’t go.

The Breeze by Samuel Tunes

Coming to you like a new disease
That carries with the breeze
Contagious words that slip into your ears with ease
With infectious humility I break the will of the strong
It won't be long before they do something wrong
Then a thermonuclear bomb lands on your lawn
Some try running away before they run out of time
Before they start losing their mind and commit a crime
Upon humanity, realizing that they can't win the race
A multitude marches in place
Disparity upon their face
They begin to taste
Insanity that they embraced

Apagar a distância by Samuel Tunes

E eu não quero acordar desse sonho, tão cedo, tão cedo
Eu sinto, desespero
Mais lembrança da distancia vem e vira pesadelo,

Desesperação, eu sinto.
Uma sensação que não eu quero mais

Estou cansado, de te ter, e não ter
Cada encontra, eu despedir de você
E só de costas, você conseguiu me ver
Não quero mais, viver sem você

Fecha os olhos e vem comigo,
Voltando para nossa jardine de amor.
Sonhando sonhos nos conseguimos
Criar um amor de infância

Fecha os olhos e vem comigo
Para a
Sonhando sonhos nos conseguimos
Apagar a distância

A nossa cura viro uma doençaa
Será que recompensa
Sofrendo por causa dessa dor
Em nome de amor

Como poso dizer que você não e para mim
Quando o meu coração fica dizendo sim

Esperando pra o Tempo (Translated) by Samuel Tunes

Lyrics written in Portuguese by Samuel Tunes to the Song "Points of Authority" - Linkin Park

VERSE 1:
Você tem poder./Não sei por que.
You have power./Don't know why.
Eu querro squecer./A dor de ser.
I want to forget./ The pain of being.
Eu so querro viver./Eu querro te ter.
I just want to live./I want to have you.
Não tem nada pra diser./E so faser.
There's nothing left to say./ Just do it.

VERSE 2:
O jeito que eu ohlo pra você.
The way I look at you
O respiracão do seu pumão quando você me ver.
The heaving from your lungs when you see me.
Ansiedade. Mais tem nada aver.
Anxiety. But it's irrevalent.
Sperãndo pra o tempo...
Waiting for the time...

CHORUS:
Não querro sentir essa dor. (Você me fas bem.)
Don't want to feel this pain. (You do me good.)
Eu so o jeito que eu so. (Você me fas bem.)
I am the way I am. (You do me good.)
Não querro mais sentir assim. (Você me fas bem.)
Don't want to feel like this anymore. (You do me good.)
Tira essa dor que esta em min. (Você me fas bem.)
Remove this pain inside me. (You do me good.)

VERSE 3:
Fasendo tudo que tambem eu fas--
Doing all that I do as well--
Por bem o mal, por no final tu permanecerás.
For better or worse, in the end you remain.
Nossa vida, querro commecar.
Our life, I want to begin.
Sperãndo pra o tempo...
Waiting for the time...

CHORUS:
Não querro sentir essa dor. (Você me fas bem.)
Don't want to feel this pain. (You do me good.)
Eu so o jeito que eu so. (Você me fas bem.)
I am the way I am. (You do me good.)
Não querro mais sentir assim. (Você me fas bem.)
Don't want to feel like this anymore. (You do me good.)
Tira essa dor que esta em min. (Você me fas bem.)
Remove this pain inside me. (You do me good.)

VERSE 1: 2X's
Você tem poder./Não sei por que.
You have power./Don't know why.
Eu querro squecer./A dor de ser.
I want to forget./ The pain of being.
Eu so querro viver./Eu querro te ter.
I just want to live./I want to have you.
Não tem nada pra diser./E so faser.
There's nothing left to say./ Just do it.

CHORUS: 2X's
Não querro sentir essa dor. (Você me fas bem.)
Don't want to feel this pain. (You do me good.)
Eu so o jeito que eu so. (Você me fas bem.)
I am the way I am. (You do me good.)
Não querro mais sentir assim. (Você me fas bem.)
Don't want to feel like this anymore. (You do me good.)
Tira essa dor que esta em min. (Você me fas bem.)
Remove this pain inside me. (You do me good.)
Não querro sentir essa dor. (Você me fas bem.) (Você tem poder...)
Don't want to feel this pain. (You do me good.) (You have power...)
Eu so o jeito que eu so. (Você me fas bem.) (Você tem poder...)
I am the way I am. (You do me good.) (You have power...)
Não querro mais sentir assim. (Você me fas bem.) (Você tem poder...)
Don't want to feel like this anymore. (You do me good.) (You have power...)
Tira essa dor que esta em min. (Você me fas bem.) (Você tem poder...)
Remove this pain inside me. (You do me good.) (You have power...)

A Dor Que eu Sinto by Samuel Tunes

a dor que eu sinto acaba comigo
a minhia vonatge e de ficar com tigo
nada mais fas sentido
seu amor e tao bonito
cada paso que eu tomo sem voce e pra tras
nao importa o que eu fas
conquistar o mundo, e superar a morte
meu coracao foi conquistado
eu so querro ficar du seu lado
si dinehro nao e importante pq naos estaom separdados por causa dele
e si nossa vida e pra ser boa pq que ele esta tao ruim
me perdoa meu amor pq eu nao aguento essa agonia
eu detesto quando voce fica fria
me dar o seu calor por favor
eu nao foi feito pra esse mundo
mais eu foi feito pra voce

The Pulse Still Pulses - Inspired by a Brazilian Song

The pulse still pulses
The pulse still pulses

Ulcer, Lymphatic cancer, leprous leukemia
Rage, rubella, bursitis, and soon there after anemia
Rancor, cavities, cramps, Hepatitis, Hernia
Bubonic Plague, Gall Bladder Stones, and burning Gonorrhea

The pulse still pulses
The pulse still pulses

Brucellosis, Encephalitis, chronic kleptomania
Toxoplasmosis, Arterioscleroses, spastic diarrhea
Syphilis, Aphasia, Demented Schizophrenia.
Hypothermia, Myopia, on occasion hypochondria

The body is still meager
The body is still meager

Rheumatism, cynicism, Thrombosis, Hypocrisy
Typhoid, Tuberculoses, and a tumorous pituitary
Fever, Flu, Phlegm, Muscular Dystrophy
Sinusitis, Laryngitis, and every kind of Heart Disease.

The pulse still pulses
The pulse still pulses

To live or die? by Samuel Tunes Published by Poetry.com Immortal Verses Series, 2006

Inside there is a question burning. Why?
I find not the answer for which I am yearning. Why?
I'm too busy, the stress is stacking. Why?
There is something that I am lacking. Why?
My peace of mind is always fleeing. Why?
I'm always left with this empty feeling. Why?
I feel alone yet they're all staring. Why?
Tears flow from others lack of caring. Why?
I deserve to receive others loving? Why?
I don't know, and thus my question, "To live or die?"

I love my job

My Wife, Jenna

1. Where did you first meet your wife?  Jenna and I met on e-Harmony.  After about a week we decided to meet in person at Dana Point Library, 33841 Niguel Rd, Dana Point, CA.

2. How long did you date before you got married?  It was a long 8 months before we got engaged and then we finally got married 3 months later; so 11 months all together.

3. How long have you been married?  2 years and 5 months.

4. What does she do to surprise you?  The last big surprise was when she flew my brother down from Oregon for my Birthday. I had no clue she was doing it, it was a great gift.

5. What if your favorite feature of hers?  I like her face!

6. What is your favorite quality?  Her maturity.

7. Does she have a nickname for you?  Boo, Poop, Papa

8. What is her favorite food?  Green Beans, BBQd Tri-tip, & Stuffing.

9. What is her favorite sport?  Skating

10. When and where did you first kiss?  A gentlemen does not speak of such things.

11. What is your favorite thing to do as a couple?  I would have to say talking to each other.

12. Do you have any children?  One.

13. How old is she?  She is 29 years old (cradle robber).

14. What is her favorite music?  She’s not all that into music but I would say Christian.  She also enjoys it when I play some mellow Brazilian music in the background.

15. What is her favorite color?  Peach

16. Will she read this? Yes

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Irreducible Complexity

I went to lunch with a colleague of mine this week and decided to run a few ideas by him. We started off talking about Big Bang Theory and moved into discussing Intelligent Design (ID). More specifically, we discussed the major supporting idea of irreducible complexity (IC). The problem with IC is there still needs to be a scientific explanation of how we go from atoms and molecules to complex proteins and a functional system within a cell. Without one, we are back to the fundamentalist creationism way of thinking of God creating everything ex nihilo, which I do not support per se (I’ll save my argument that the sum of the universe = zero for another post). I suggested that there had to be some sort of ‘DNA’ at the sub-atomic level. That is to say that atoms, within themselves, must have a set of instructions to follow to explain something as complex as a flagellum motor.
Then the idea of Cymatics occurred to me and it offered itself as a probable explanation. So how could something complex come from something relatively simple? First take a look at Cymatics in action, and then listen to one of its proponents. Now, I do not outright agree with everything stated nor do I blindly propose that this is the answer to how God spoke the universe into existence. However, I certainly do propose that some similar mechanism may be at work. These patterns are created because of the natural path of least resistance. As such I am interested in identifying what design can be created by using the lowest frequency possible, then using a scale of pitch where the intervals strictly following the Golden Ratio. I am also interested in other energy waves or fields (e.g. electromagnetic). If anyone can find some correlation between all this and fractals, I’m interested.